Yes Datuk, I did not put this in the 'Terms & Conditions' when we made the agreement of me taking photos for your engagement day, and I think I should have mentioned this anyway:
"The photographer shall take the best pictures for the event covering the best lighting, best posing, best angle and best subject composition with his best effort, but the photographer shall also be given the exception should the quality of work is defected by the inner factor such as emotions. Client is advised to consider viewing the pictures as 'another way of expression'. "
-- In this clause, 'another way of expression' is free from the client's expectation, as it's heavily dependent on the mood of the photographer.
In other words, you should not blame me for some weird pictures I've taken which were not up to the standard of Ms Fatma The Ultimate Diva Behind Lens.
OK let put it straight -- If you find the pictures are a little bit gloomy, sorrowful, lonely or perhaps sensing the smell of heart-broken, you should, according to the clause, just accept it, because --
-- well, I hate to say this, you've got one of the finest lady in this world as your fiance.. and my heart was hence broken into pieces just because she's yours now.
Congratulations, heartily from your (heart-already-broken) photographer.
1. Wakakakakka... psycho x?
2. Datuk, remember the conversation we talked about photo-editing? These photos are purposely touched up, just because of the ambiance I want -- so, though sometime photo editing is 'kinda' against a photographer's 'integrity', but for the sake of 'expression', feel no guilty.
Dec 28, 2009
Dec 25, 2009
I guess I stumbled.
Just think that standing up after stumbling -- that would be a little bit childish here..
Want to, but not really afford to...
A thread of old life, how would you pick up? How about that of new one?
Normal may it sound - but how'd you go on when your heart begins to understand there's no going back?
Life, and its many many layers, were your choice initially, but not your options anymore once you'd decided...
1. Pardon my awkward writing, I called it 'hide-and-seek'.
2. IGNORE it if you don't want to understand. Really, it doesn't really matter, so don't shout at me.
3. 03:31:54, I'm tired.
4. Happy holiday, if the mood matches yours.
Dec 16, 2009
A young reader of my blog, Cheer, decided to start off blogging after following my little 'lEft.nothingbehind' for quite some times. She sent me a message telling me how nervous she was.
...and I did not reply Cheer's message. I only smiled and wished her all the best, in my heart.
Another young reader of my humble blog, Zafirah, sent me a little note telling me how she was 'inspired' by the approach of me telling a story.. and hence practiced it in her SPM trial of English paper essay writing, and managed to get a 47/50 high score, equivalent to 91% for the paper. In her email, she told me how excited and how thankful she was..
....and until now I do not know how to reply her email.
Across the South China Sea, an English teacher in China, Xiaorong Li, sent me a note asking permission to use one of my blog post for her (his?) class. In the note, teacher Xiaorong Li told me she wished to let her students perceive a 'transcultural perspective' from my post...
...and I think I replied something but I forgot..
...and now please tell me how should I react to all these feedbacks. Overwhelmed? Proud? Excited? Motivated? What?
I showed the email from Ms. Zafirah to my mentors, hoping I would get some words from them but I did not. Of course they are happy for me for being good enough to inspire someone else, but that was not the feeling I was getting.
Instead, I somehow felt worried.
'To inspire' is a big word, and I don't think I'm right to carry it.
I know what's the feeling of 'getting inspired' like, and I would proudly say that there are great people around me who are truly inspiring... and listen carefully, inspirational people can be people who seems to be tiny and down-to-earth. I've seen too many so called 'great leaders' talking on the stage of 'inspiring people', but they only talk craps and cliche, and pathetic enough, while they thought they are gaining worships and admirations, they never realized they are actually making themselves an on-sale product with cheap promotions.
Seriously, when you find yourself trying too hard boosting what you are and who you are, with some old memories of track records and medals and awards, then you are loosing crowd.
..cuz a man would know well enough what's the feeling of being truly inspired.. and a man, too, should know well enough when and why they are being truly inspiring, and when and why they are not.
..because 'to inspire' is a big word -- I just think that one should at least be righteous and sincere enough to carry the noble task, achievements and glories are only the next factors that count after the integrity and modesty, no?
Ps.. Zafirah, yes you are right, it feels amazing to know I somehow helped out at the end of the day through my humble writings, but I don't think mine is able to affect people as what you've said. I'm glad I've unintentionally provided you some kind of references or perhaps an idea for you to write better, and your feedback is definitely alarming for me as I now really really have to watch out what I write and what I said. :) thanks again.
Dec 8, 2009
I'm back. Last night, while you were asleep.
Pardon me for the sweat and blood, it was a lot of try-and-error I've done.
Pardon me for the wounds and scars, it was a lot of huff-and-puff I've gone through..
..and pardon me for failing, if you expect any win.
I'm back. Last night, and I sneaked into your room.
I still have my sword with me, more importantly I still have my name with me. "Your name is a given," she said, "use it to fight rather than your sword.."
..and I left, for this journey, carrying my name and her last words, I brought it to you...
I'm back. Last night. And I kneed beside you and observed.
I could tell you my wildest tales of my journey, tell you how I fought the dragon and escaped from a bursting volcano.. ; or perhaps how I lost in the jungle of lies and almost drowned in the river of dilemma...
..and of course sometime I exaggerate, but my dear, every story I've told is part of me... ..
I'm back. Last night, when you were dreaming of an adventure.
How I wish you'd learn to stand tall, and live righteously; but living righteously is more than what people around you might have told you...
"Always check your intent before you draw your sword," she made me to remember this when I was given this sword....and now I'm giving it to you, and promise me to use it as a separator.
A separator between one right intent and those bad ones..
... as one right intent is already a beginning of righteous living..
I'm back. Last night, and I kissed your sleeping eye...
.. and I'm leaving, perhaps before dawn..
How I wish to take you along, but I choose not to. As you will have your own journey one day... a journey like mine, or even greater, and as adventurous as your dream, in your pursuit of knightship.